Yes, this is what meditation is like FOR EVERYONE. Not just you. You don’t suck at meditation. You’re not doing it wrong. It’s not impossible for you. Every single person who has ever attempted to meditate, meditates just like this, just like you, all the time.
Do it anyway.
The goal of meditating is NOT short-term, momentary “zen” bliss no thoughts, quiet mind. The goal is the long-term retraining of the mind towards understand that all reactivity is optional and every thought (good, bad, stressful, pleasurable) is just transitional energy moving around the brain.